|(picture taken when we went to Knotts...and my boys rode this crazy ride. :) )|
But Our Lord.. is so good to us.
My prayer list is filling up. People are hurting.. both physically and emotionally. We are hurting. There are struggles going on--and I can't even imagine the fear and the pain in the situations. In these times we can RUN to the arms of our Lord and rest in him. Sometimes we feel like we are alone and we can't see God, yet I think it's then, when we are hurting the most, that He is the one who is holding us, and carrying us through it.
The six of us have been sick in one way or the other for the past 2-3 weeks. Right now it is Kathryn, Matthew and me. Kathryn was sick on her birthday yesterday, boo. With Matthew, I am forcing him to drink with every fun thing we can think of :) But he taught me a lesson the other night.
Matthew wasn't feeling very well, and was trying to sleep. He hugged me tight.. I held him and told him how much I loved him. Then I pulled away to let him rest. He pulled me close again and hugged me tighter. He did not want to let me go. It was so sweet, it made me cry and want to just hold him and spend time with him for hours, you know?
Matthew is such a busy little boy right now. When he is active and playing I try to hold him and he pushes me away... but when he is sick or really tired he wants me to hold him close. I think I'm like Matthew with God sometimes. I get so busy with life and being busy, or just doing what I want that I just go along... knowing He's going to be there.. He provides for my needs, he loves me.. he's there if I need him. When I'm hurting I run to him and beg him to hold and comfort me. I wish I desired closeness all the time. Sometimes I just wish I could do more for God. I say, "Lord, what can I do for you? " And I think sometimes he just wants us to Want to be with him. To read his word, to talk with him. To tell Him how much we love him. To honor Him in everything we do.
Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength. Deuteronomy 6:5
Lord, help me love you like I should.